Writing a few words in a journal I muse about what I wish for in 2013. It is January 6th and already that new year stuff seems ‘old hat.’ Well I suppose it would, if being mindful is above all else about being aware of the value of the moment and being in that moment.
I write, ‘I want to live by BEing first.’
. . and then I wonder – as opposed to what?
Given that I have spent a good deal of energy in recent years searching and seeking, perhaps that is it: the thing I no longer am.
Am I no longer the seeker, always wandering and musing and looking out for a sign of what the future may hold.
I think that’s it . . . I am no longer searching for a vision of the future: rather I am content in the present and allowing my faith in the future to take care of itself and me.
Slowly over 6 months, I have grown to realise that BEing aware of my presence and state of mind in the moment is how I can best take care of me.
This shift away from when and towards now has been liberating. Anxieties have gradually fallen away as I place daily energy into daily living.
If things change tomorrow then I will enjoy BEing tomorrow or next week or next month.
I no longer expend energy on the unknown, the may-bes or the what-ifs. After all, the future doesn’t exist right now.
I love BEing. It has freed me for today. How much more pleasurable to be with me now. I like me more this way.
When the future presents itself, I will enjoy unwrapping it and enjoy it too!